User:Katxivy

hi kat ily and imysm- Nikhil

saratoga

17.2 creative nonfic; ra: carrie

18.1 interpol; ra: maria

19.1 cog psych; ra: shaina

moments

sang an original song for the first time called "learn to love" (17.2)

got rejected by a guy (17.2)

got 1 kill in blammo (17.2)

wrote a bunch of personal essays that i'll steal from time to time for class essays bc theyre just that good (17.2)

danced with 6 guys at each dance only to realize the guy i actually liked thought i didn't like him in that way (18.1)

got one kill in blammo (18.1)

watched mean girls for the first time (18.1)

was on the pyramid for the first dance and the last dance even though gia didn't get on top (19.1)

had iso's with bev and rachel almost every night (19.1)

got 6 blammo kills in one day, ended up with 8 total (19.1)

got blammo-ed mid-panic attack (19.1)

CARRIED my vermonster group by eating half of it (19.1)

stole a plate :) (19.1)

got esther's staff lanyard bc shes a g (19.1)

original songs

learn to love verse 1 she's always been the shy one, never could break out, never could break out, no never could break out she knows she won't fall in love or only be falling down, only be falling down, only be falling down

pre-chorus what does this mean do you really like me what does this mean do you really like me

chorus cause she's never been kissed before and she's never been pretty before maybe it's could change if she smiled a bit more she wants to dance under stars she wants to see all your heart does she really want to take this chance cause she's never learned to love

verse 2 she wonders what it's like to go out on a date, go out on a date, go out on a date she dreams of being in love without a pretty face, without a pretty face, without a pretty face

pre-chorus chorus

bridge i know all about this i've never been in situations, like these and i've never been caught up with the heart and the darkness i've never learn to love (ooo)

alt chorus cause i've never been kissed before and i've never been pretty before maybe it's could change if i smiled a bit more i want to dance under stars i want to see all your heart do i really want to take this chance cause i've never learned to love

passionfruit speech

hi im kat and this is my 3rd year at cty when writing this i kept stumbling the right words to write down because its hard to portray how this place has changed me so i wrote a poem

i've changed from 13 where i wished for invisibility my squirrel year dream to be unseen i thought i was a liability

i somehow grew from that shell i sang my own song for the first time as well i drowned in my sadness i could not bear but in you i trusted would care

i remember the little things all right the beautiful fluorescent swinging lights chalk on the ground and how ive always lived on rounds

i grew to fourteen where i grew into insecurity which believe me is still here just has less visibility

i fell in love with this place again ran into some toxic ends but i forgive you for what you said after all we are just trying our best old friend

fifteen is now here and i wish that the time wasnt near to say farewell is a leap of courage that i dont know how to manage

im not perfect ive made mistakes i hope you can forgive me for the failure to give or take

even though i had may have had the worst low im satisfied the way things are coming to close

i meant everything in my song to call this place anything but home is just wrong

from avocado toast to canon songs i love the most to brain hats and all that to friendzoning to isoing to blammo spoons activities after noon leg tag, frisbee, and other sports to you all i hope to support

call me when u feel down because you are not alone just look around

this past 3 weeks have been fun ive somewhat enjoyed morning runs ur strength i admire please continued to inspire

getting through pctyd is not gonna be easy but stay in touch loves i know it sounds cheesy

i admire every one of you u are bulletproof in my memory i wish i didnt have to say goodbye too but this is just reality

from now on i will never forget this place i knew it will be hard to get through its time to say adieu i like you i love you i cty you

i love cty and i love the passionfruit